The past two weeks have attempted to weigh me down with a
feeling of overwhelm.
Yesterday while at work, I began to mentally write a reflection
about my reactions to this overwhelm.
At first, I began by tackling as many of the projects and assignments
from my English Comp class and from other roles of my life I am trying to
manage. Each day I was going to bed without half the amount of tasks completed
that I had set out to complete. This was not in procrastination, rather a
shortage in time for the amount of tasks, work and sleep I was trying to
achieve. Slowly I began to allow myself to despair over my failures. My personality
became short and bitter. Monday morning
before walking into work, I set in my vehicle reading my bible. I can’t find
the scripture now, but the message of the words that jumped out at me and
caused me to rethink my reactions to my current situation was this: Those who
let go of hope, are assigning themselves to depression.
With out realization, I had allowed myself to believe I was
falling and therefore I had began to lose hope.
These thoughts about my actions stuck with me all day. As I
worked I began sorting and reprioritizing what I needed to accomplish. Instead
of with a mental state of this is what I need to get done and how am I going to
do it, I thought, this is what I need to get done and this is how I AM GOING to
get it done!!
Though my nights have been a little short that past few
days, my mind is much more at ease and I do not feel overwhelmed. A little
stressed maybe, but not overwhelmed to the point of despair.
God is good and through Christ, nothing is impossible!!!
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